Out of final fantasy

Seems like after graduation I have been thinking about a lot of things, of work, finance, family, boyfriends, etc....just a whole bundle! Its really funny how what the systme taught us in our high school is so different from reality. Now, i tend to understand why they sing those songs ( etc. Avril avinge song, cranberries ) . They say money is not important, but, in reality it is, without money u can do nothing. But then again, it is such a rat race world , i have come ot a point that, enough i never enough, no matter how rich u r , u will always desire more, so the best it to be contented and happy with watever u have. Not to say that so contented that u jus fold u arms and live a it is. COntnted to such a point that u do not covet, that way u can progress healthily. But, watever it is, helath and happiness are the two most important things in life. And how do u atttain these? Through having a good relationship with God and your family. Seriously, I have tried staying away fr these two things, tried mixing wih the world, see how it goes....but...it was all emptiness....nothing was as fulfilling as having God a my Saviour and my Famlily as my backbone. I am saying that ur family are really important in ur life. They have seen u through thick and thin... and will always be there for u especially ur mum!

How about friends? haih...after being out in the world to work, when i compare the xtian friend and non-xtian friend, i truly see a big diffence between them. In the xtian friends, I see contentment, selflessness, grace, kindness, forgiveness, holiness. But, the non-xtian friends, they do not say what they mean ( and many times I kena conned! ) Do you know how much it hurts to kena 'conned' ? even if it be for joking purposes. I know..they jut kidding but still...if u say something, u have to mean it! That is what Vivian always say :" you have to mean what u say' you don't say sorry simply, or thank u simply, u haveto mean it from the bottom of ur heart! but, no, some ppl are jut so superficial , they make friend with u jus because they know u might be of value to them in future . Haih...so disapointed with this cut-throat world man! Why can't lofe be a simple as abc. we make friends because we love them just like Jesus Loved us no matter who we are, what colour or how rich we are. If only everything was jus as pure it is, wouldn's the world be a better place?

There is really much o learn fr thi real world. I am really truly shockd out of my ideal fantasy world. I am awaken. Fairy tales are not true, now only do i realise they are mere fairy tales and have resolved to not read any of these fairy tale book. There are o prince charming, no cinderella, u have to work everything out with your bare hands! It is really so painfu to know that prince charming can never happen to you, but oh well, what to do, what is yours is yours, what is not is not, everything is in God's hand.