Superficial world..confirmed!

Dissapointment with the world i realise was not what i felt personally, I actually found a friend who feels the same way! Stephanie! High five!So happy. It is not only me alone feeling that the worl judges its book by its cover. " don't judge a book by its cover' haha! What ever crap essay that i wrote in high school does not exist in the real world! Wake up junie!

Life is a single's journey/....don't u think so? ok...so let's say u r married, u still have to live ur own life, dont u. Like mum and dad, everyone in the house goe to work masing-masing, comes back at different times, then they masing-masing do their own stuff.then sleep. everything on own. its just the presence is felt. I guess..love is just like that....action speak louder than words..that is so true...and even just by being present, that is enough, that is love...well..spoken..loud and clear...how nice it is to be in love........

Chun Mun's stag party

Went to Chun Mun's stag party today. He is so romantic. Wrote a 5 page long love poem for the girl just to ask her : would u be my gf?. THen he made a home-made video just to propose to her? HE said the first time he heard her voice on the hp, he knew she was the one! possibile a not? sounds too good to be true. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm always wonder when will my turn be... and if it be my turn, how is it gonna be? Dare not expect much though as the more u expect, the greater the dissapointment will be. Oh well, I am just gonna let it be whatever and leave it as a surprise, no point hoping so much as it is still a looooooooooooooong journey, i think.

Good guys? extinct already la. except...maybe for my dad and grandpa. But, u say single good guys?no la...dun think can find. If got also good girls, aplenty! Example? my hoisemates lo! No one can beat them man!! And Adeline Siew also!. I keep praising them right? Ya, because they are really good people, their heart and sould, body and mind, all out for God, it is as though they no longer belong to themselve, everything they do, they do it all for GOd, not to show people how good they are, not to boast, but you can truly see it is from the bottom of their heart. Even when in finding partners. It is as though they don't care anymore. SO long a GOd is with them, they are contented already. Many of us today feel as though we are incomplete without a partner, but , it is not true at all. From the lives of my housemates and the christian friends I had in Glasgow, I could see just how complete life can be with God alone.

Out of final fantasy

Seems like after graduation I have been thinking about a lot of things, of work, finance, family, boyfriends, etc....just a whole bundle! Its really funny how what the systme taught us in our high school is so different from reality. Now, i tend to understand why they sing those songs ( etc. Avril avinge song, cranberries ) . They say money is not important, but, in reality it is, without money u can do nothing. But then again, it is such a rat race world , i have come ot a point that, enough i never enough, no matter how rich u r , u will always desire more, so the best it to be contented and happy with watever u have. Not to say that so contented that u jus fold u arms and live a it is. COntnted to such a point that u do not covet, that way u can progress healthily. But, watever it is, helath and happiness are the two most important things in life. And how do u atttain these? Through having a good relationship with God and your family. Seriously, I have tried staying away fr these two things, tried mixing wih the world, see how it goes....but...it was all emptiness....nothing was as fulfilling as having God a my Saviour and my Famlily as my backbone. I am saying that ur family are really important in ur life. They have seen u through thick and thin... and will always be there for u especially ur mum!

How about friends? haih...after being out in the world to work, when i compare the xtian friend and non-xtian friend, i truly see a big diffence between them. In the xtian friends, I see contentment, selflessness, grace, kindness, forgiveness, holiness. But, the non-xtian friends, they do not say what they mean ( and many times I kena conned! ) Do you know how much it hurts to kena 'conned' ? even if it be for joking purposes. I know..they jut kidding but still...if u say something, u have to mean it! That is what Vivian always say :" you have to mean what u say' you don't say sorry simply, or thank u simply, u haveto mean it from the bottom of ur heart! but, no, some ppl are jut so superficial , they make friend with u jus because they know u might be of value to them in future . Haih...so disapointed with this cut-throat world man! Why can't lofe be a simple as abc. we make friends because we love them just like Jesus Loved us no matter who we are, what colour or how rich we are. If only everything was jus as pure it is, wouldn's the world be a better place?

There is really much o learn fr thi real world. I am really truly shockd out of my ideal fantasy world. I am awaken. Fairy tales are not true, now only do i realise they are mere fairy tales and have resolved to not read any of these fairy tale book. There are o prince charming, no cinderella, u have to work everything out with your bare hands! It is really so painfu to know that prince charming can never happen to you, but oh well, what to do, what is yours is yours, what is not is not, everything is in God's hand.

Growing Up

Went to many places today. Instead of staying at home being depressed , I went to Mum's CG and then later to Suet Ling's Birthday party. It is indeed shocking and weird to see ppl growing and changing. Its funny. It is as though you jus cant control it. I jut realise that u really cannot control anything that happens around you. Just like after a year, Zi Ying, ZI XIng, Zi Ning, ZI han, wow,,they have all grown sooo tall..u just cant control, cant comprehend. I really think that I am really thinking to much. I have wasted my precious youth 5 years trying to control that which i cant. I hope its not too late to turn back time yet. It is only now that my hormones are running. WHy did I ever chose the path which damage me.. I have so much to offer to the world, look at how i bright up the life of the hp man, and the lady buying ice-cream....I have so much to offer to the world! WHy give it up just for one stupid absurd thing! I have lost 5 precious years.

It is only throough my 1 year living with my precious, gracious housemates that I truly realise that I can be accepted as who I am no matter who I turn out to be and I really owe my life to them. Without them, I would have been dead without me evern realising it. It was them who woke me up, who gave me back my self worth. Although the journey is still long, and although each of us has gone our own way, I believe, iN CHrist we are a family and I hope, Vivian, Joyce, Anna, that we will stay as friends forever. THanks for everything, I know thouand thank Yous are just not enough.. but I truly from the bottom of my heart, thank you and thank you again. Because of u guys, I continue to live today and wil continue to do so even though all odds all evil temptation comes by, everytime they come, i wil remember what u guys always say especially Joyce's words : ' Don't even think about it "


I will not.......i will try ....i will try....until the battle is won....the day when I become victorious over this , that is the day, I realy mut have a massive celebration! and u guys will be my bridesmaid!

peterborough memories

Uncle Fu wah and Lianne

pigging out.............

smile for the camera!!!!if

Lianne and I fighting over the salad...she too loves her veggies

Sis trying to teach a 8month old how to ride a tricycle?great ambitions, sis!

Mum...the 'cook'

the cook and her lovely assisntant, Cheng fong che che

Lynsey, Me, sis and Lianne all ready to roll...

Are u contented?

More than laziness...i think our society today really lacks contentment. u have a gf..but still..u flirt around when u see a gal u think is prettier than ur gf justin hope to get a better looking gf..haih..men..men...boys boys...how realistic!!! Why does boys always and i mean always have to look at the wrapper and not in its content? is not the inner package that is more important than how the package is wrapped? haih...so dissapointed w em. tell me..just tell me.. which guy will never look at the outside package before deciding to make a move? none that a know of!! They want the best looking gal, the gal with the most curvacious figure to be their gf...y? they want to be envied by their friends... wat are we girls to them man? a trophy to display around and show off to their friends?! ergggghhh!!! Even though how good an angel that gal maybe.. its never enough to satisfy them.. they will never be contented with the 6-star treatment they get from their not so pretty, consolation prize girlfriend...and in the end.. another heart breaking story unfolds...haih.saddening guys! who do they think they are?

back to contentment..same way goes to girls..always complaining and comparing.non-stop!!! Once a gal is prettier than u 'aw..that gal..not pretty enough la...head too big, buttocks too small etc etc....' even if u do complement her to others or tel others 'aw..she is really.pretty' ...then it follows' wished i had those eyes, those lips...etc...' we are never contented, never happy with watever we have!!when will we ever come in tune with our own self...when are we ever gonna be grateful for whatever we have? I guess.. thats why Jesus came from heaven to earth.. to teach us the lesson of Godliness with contentment... to count our blessing for each and everything that we have. we complain that we have short legs, but wat about those who dont have legs?..should they kill themslef and die instead??

Jolly Jelly Xmas

Xmas..of course go church la...but the preacher today not very good. he was a bit cheong hei... and a bit too much of info to input into my sleepy head.. very tired a!! yesterday work till 7 pm then have to go for xmas street party in TTDI. met Wei Jin from medic IMU. i couldnt really remem his name. hehe..just remem his name start with w. but, surprise surprise..he remembered my name!!! haha!! tot i was just a small small small fry...how come they can remem my name but i can't? do u think i have poor memory..i think i have amnesia. hehe..neway,.. met wern jun also and few others. met Grace also...boy, could she sing!! she said she entered MI but got kicked out the first session. What judges we have la....Grace so talented u noe...but...kicked out? they must have real thick mucus in their ears.!!!the street party got soo much much things to eat.rojak..lok lok, capati, beef, lamb etc...been eating like a pig this xmas. so many invites..soo much good food. Don't be surprised if u find a pig walking aroung imu in 3 january.. haha!!

anyway..back to church..after service was another great feast for me. One aunty made konnyaku jelly!!! MY FAV!! haha!! After 1 month of deprivation of konnnayku jelly ( due to financial constrains ( konnyaku jelly very ex ler...and mum also nagging me..advising me to stop eating so much junkies !) this was the time for me to release my self/...i practically finished all the jelly she made i think it amounts to 2 packtets of jelly, it was a lot..but i had a time of my life haha!! there were longans and nata de coco..so it was so delicious i couldnt stop..( me being me ;p) , of course beside jelly..i had others also.. the red bean soup la, cream puff la, porridge la etc la. Dunno why... lately,.i have been craving for red bean.. everyday i must eat somwthing too do with red bead,,, be it red bean bun , soup or angku.. and boy.. the amount of red bean i eat... 20 red bean angku in one go. that despite having three meals a day!!! wonder wat is worng wif me...i think i must really stop my craziness..once i like a thing i just go all out for it .. once the season goes off...it dissapears. But, funny,...i can only eat so much when im alone...but when i am with people....i can control myself. maybe this is wat they call it as boredom or eating when i am feeling lonely. anyway...have made a new year resolution to stop this craziness. perhaps i might even be able to shed a few kilos!!!( all the gals in IMU seems to be in a diet frenzy..look at grace!!! stick think but yet...i heard she is on a diet!! wat about yih yang, sharon, Kimberly... etc....?same case! is a competition going on or am i missing out something? do update me if i am lost somehwere in IMU. eating just a curry puff or doughnut for lunch?..hmmm....is that filling? come to think of it,,,,isnt it plain torturing to be depriving urself of one of the greatest thing you can enjoy as a human being?i dunno....sometimes they eat so little it makes me feel like a total pig !! haha!!

Xmas present at the beep of the hp

Xmas....the most beautiful and wonderful season of the year...or so it seems....so ...how did i celebrate my xmas?

Hey hey hey!! its d day when Jesus was born!!! The saviour who died on the cross to wash away all our sin!!! i mean...u see.. we are all by nature so sinful...even though how goodie good a person u may be ( outwardly) but...im sure none of us, yes, none of us can run away from sin, from saying, talking or even dreaming bad things !!! Even simple things like : ' oh, how i wish i had those eyes, those lips, those hair...etc' is a sin!!! Aw, man....how can we be as perfect as Jesus? we can't. i can't. Try as i might, every single day... i just can't run away from sinning!I guess that's why Jesus is so important to me.. to forgive me everyday.. and take away whatever dirty stuff that i have done. In view of how important Jesus is to me.....so how did i celeb the bday of my bestest best friend, who knows and bears all my probs?

well...stayed up late till 00:00 just to wish merry xmas through sms to all my friends . then, a hug and a kiss to each of the family member..and off i was to bed. So tired! worked whole day! sold 64 bottles of Pantene together with may yee. oh ya... talking about that.. haha...it was really a blessed day for me. In the last minute, my supervisor called and told me to find another promoter to promote pantene leave-on hair mosituriser. If i can find, the commission is rm20 for each 25 bottles solf. If can't find, i myself have to sell 30 bottles only to get rm10!! so much difference!! Of course...i pia ming find ppl to work. sms to so many ppl...but none was available. Then, just before i slept,..i sms may yee. i tot haiya...just try la..she last time told me she taught tuition etc...maybe...just maybe there might be a slight chance she will want to work. so i sent a sms to her. in my heart, i actually tot she 95% wouldn't want to work wan la...i mean...she so pretty and looks so elegant and like millionaires daughter. summore she so thin and fragile...want her to work as a promoter ???? It will be more like an ant performing a Herculean task! HAHA!!

But....
Hey Hey Hey...the next morning.. (with the hp still in my grip )i recieved an sms. she said Yes!!! somemore say her bro gf wan to work as well!! this is doulbe blessing from God!!The person that i least expected to agree to work actually said YES!!! i was so shocked!!!and Happy also la..so now i dun have to work so hard and can at the same time earn double the pay..thanx may yee!!

My Lastest Job

Promoting Wall's Mini Cornetto