Blurry Lab Session and Dumbness

just finish lab today....was in a super duper blurry mood... didn't know what i was doing..luckily i had a good lab mate....may yee to untangle my blurrness...hehe..but i felt rather stupid...hmmmm..talking about stupidity, blurrness and junie.. i thinkk they all come hand-in-hand...they are all correlated.don't you think?

Do you ever feel looked down upon or that u think u are so stupid..and everyone else seem to be just smarter than you are? well...that's what i feel all the time...whenever i step my foot in IMU. its like....how come everyone else can finish doing pharmaceutical calculations so fast and you are like the last to finish? why does everyone like to teach you to do things or tell you to do things?..are you really that dumbo ?or is it how you have potrayed yourself that made people feel that they need to tell about smthg.?did they finish doing all calculations so fast because they are naturally smart or did they do some exercises before or is it just another scene of the dumbo me?why...why did God create some smart and some less smart @dumbo like me?...haha...whatever it is...i am still happy being me!!!i guess i just have to accept the fact that some pppl are smarter than the others and that smartness does not necessarily determine the happiness of one's life. some ppl just have to work harder than the rest in order to achive the same results.

But , i must still say ...self-confidence is so important in a person's life! Whenever i feel down or feel stupid.or feel like a dumbo..i will have low self-confidence and will talk less....its funny...and it is just a very spontaneous reaction to the way i feel