Torn between Friends
haih...start of new semester marks start of new conflicts....
but, my conflicts are such that it does not involve others but only myself!!! what a weird conflict i would say.....
i just find life as a 20 year...so different from life when i was in high school...in high school i had a bunch of friends...a fixed bunch of friends...we do everything together...from studying to camping together....
but now....studying..i have a gang....hanging out lepaking...another gang... it is just so...different..
all the time..i just keep asking myself...do i belong to this gang or that gang?..does it even matter whether i belong to a gang anot?..is it that impotant to feell this sense of belonging?...but...life is a single persons' journey isnt it?no one is gonna care whether u are lonely at times or not...no one..!!!u are the one who has to make the initiative..to ask around what activities they are having in order to feel belonged....so..again..its a conflict of self...why..oh..why am i having so much conflict within me?..why oh why...do i iquestion myself so much?...can't life be as simple as ABC?..no...there must be boy girl..conflicts....there must be friends conflicting each other...haih....where do i belong?where do you belong?
but, my conflicts are such that it does not involve others but only myself!!! what a weird conflict i would say.....
i just find life as a 20 year...so different from life when i was in high school...in high school i had a bunch of friends...a fixed bunch of friends...we do everything together...from studying to camping together....
but now....studying..i have a gang....hanging out lepaking...another gang... it is just so...different..
all the time..i just keep asking myself...do i belong to this gang or that gang?..does it even matter whether i belong to a gang anot?..is it that impotant to feell this sense of belonging?...but...life is a single persons' journey isnt it?no one is gonna care whether u are lonely at times or not...no one..!!!u are the one who has to make the initiative..to ask around what activities they are having in order to feel belonged....so..again..its a conflict of self...why..oh..why am i having so much conflict within me?..why oh why...do i iquestion myself so much?...can't life be as simple as ABC?..no...there must be boy girl..conflicts....there must be friends conflicting each other...haih....where do i belong?where do you belong?
posted by junie at 1:08 PM
4 Comments:
Oh well.. whoever said life was easy... just give yourself a break and hopefully find correct answers.. Life isn't a single person journey.. it will only be meaningful if the journey was shared by the ones that you love.. ;)
i agree to what jasmine said.. life won't be meaningful if u live ur life alone.. we can share happiness n sorrow with our friends too..
Junie, when I read your blog, I have a feeling that you're afraid of being alone. Well, everyone wants to "belong" to a certain gang of friends. But there's no such thing that last forever you know, especially friendship/relationship. One minute you can be so close together and the next so far apart. So, live your live to the fullest. If you feel it's right to do something, just do it! (sounds like nike promotion)
Junie, i just saw and read this. You've said out everything in my heart. I've this feeling since I was in primay school. I'm all alone like ALIEN. I don't know what to do. I wonder why... and yet couldn't get the answer. sometimes so close, sometimes like... To me, u r so happening in your groups of friends and yet me... haih...
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